virtual excercise

by humanmama on January 26, 2012

 

I think part of my problem with the Internet and technology is that it is a BIG FAT TRICKSTER. You may spend four hours on the Internet, and you may feel like you got things done. But guess what? Updating your facebook friends and tweeting and watching the latest Philippine prisoner-dance on Youtube may be fun. It may be interesting. But you didn’t accomplish anything at all.

I’m so sorry to have to tell you this way.

Just think: if I spent half the time working out each week that I do updating this site, doing research, and posting blog posts, I would literally be having interventions with family members. They’d all come over, at the same time, and say:

“AJ, there’s something we need to talk to you about. It’s your insane workout schedule. It’s crazy. And it’s making you too thin.”

Ahh, sometimes I have a dream where this is really happening. [-happy sigh-] Anyway, what I mean is that when it all comes down to it in the world, the Internet doesn’t really matter. If it ceased to exist tomorrow there would be a lot of lost, confused people. For about a month. Kind of like what happened after Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston got divorced. But the world went on. People forgot about them. Kind of.

It’s something I have to remind myself of all the time. Because being present, and here in the here-and-now, like making play-dough cookies with my kids, is actually something that matters. And when I find myself drifting off to facebook or pinterest or just off, I sometimes have to take a minute and think, “Do I need a break? Or do I need to just enjoy my time here?” Because sometimes if I’m drifting off it’s because I need a break in the most terrible way. From this house and the kids, from being married and from being a mommy. Just for a minute, or an hour. But sometimes I realize it’s my way otf tuning out. And I have to remind myself to tune back in, because this is really what matters.

"tune in, mom!"

If I’m tuned in to my kids, and to “what really matters,” I can really just sit back and enjoy the amazingness which is 2- and 5-year olds. I [cannot] enjoy pregnancy… Well, I wait for pregnancy to be over. But soon I’ll have three, and the two I have now won’t get the same mommy then. Not for a little while. So I tune in, and turn off the computer and TV, and just drink them in. Because they’re wonderful.

And, of course, because I can’t drink anything else in. They frown on that during pregnancy.

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