new [school] year’s resolution

by humanmama on August 24, 2012

School is beginning again, and it reminds me of my school years. I was one of those kids, divorced parents, split home, a tad disheveled, waiting on the steps of the school for 45 minutes or more for the parent who was late. So, you can see how school always freaks me out a bit. I want to be there, be involved, and be prepared, but at the same time I don’t want to be totally stressed out by the school schedule. I think kids pick up on that.

In fact, I think kids pick up on a lot. Although you may not think so, there are many things that we do or say that even the littlest ones can hone in on. They’re smart little buggers. Kids feel stress, they understand anxiety, they light up when they sense happiness. In short, those little shorties know how we’re feeling. And it’s uncanny.

I’m often encouraging friends and relatives not to swear or gossip in front of their kids, and I’m (usually) pretty careful about not doing so in front of my own. Because those little urchins can really pick up on the negativity. Recently, when she’s upset at something, I’ve been hearing Lilly (age three) yell “UGH! Oh, DAWNNIT!” It isn’t bad that she’s saying “darn it,” but at the same time, I always crings when I hear something that sounds like my voice coming out of their lips.

So on this eve before the weekend before school begins again, I vow to make my words and deeds a little more positive. So that my kids will feed on the goodness of their mama and not the bitterness that comes from fights with relatives, squabbles with neighbors, or just plain anxious “back to school” energy. I’m gonna try to make a joyful noise, darnit. Oh, and also, pick my kids up from school on time. And pack lunches early. And do homework on time. And sign up for some after school activities…

Okay, for now? I’ll just try to be a little more positive. What is your new-school-year’s resolution?

(this photo says to me: “I’m mad when you’re mad, Mom.”)

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Dana August 24, 2012 at 11:41 am

Love this!!!!!
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Jessica August 24, 2012 at 5:20 pm

Oh, those cheeks. I love them so much.

Yes, kids definitely pick up on it. I’ve been trying to get myself out of the habit of talking about my kids when they’re in the room. It starts when they’re infants and we tell our friends about how things are going while the babies lie on the floor and kick at various objects. Before you know it, you’re telling your friend about your 4-year-old’s temper tantrums right in front of him. Whoops! I need to control my temper and respect their privacy.

Have you read the latest Momastery post? You should. Your first paragraph reminded me of it.
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