First Day of Panic Attacks

by humanmama on August 29, 2011


copyright Bill Watterson

First day of school is here and I’m TOTALLY FREAKED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, ahem, let me start over. Actually, it’s not even the first day of school yet. It’s the day of our kindergarten interview where the teachers meet our kids, individually, for fifteen minutes. And I’m STILL freaked out. We already did it and I’m freaked out.

When I was young I was (as you know) home schooled. I started school in 5th grade. So I don’t know kindergarten!! I don’t know elementary school, really, and I’m sure even if I did remember what it was like I would still be a little freaked out. When I did go to school my parents were divorced and both definitely going through some things and we were definitely the kids who showed up not knowing what was going on. I remember getting to school photos in middle school and not having my hair washed, not knowing when parent-teacher conferences were, and just kind-of coasting my way through middle and high-school. And, like all good children, I’d like to learn from the past.

So every year (preschool years 1 and 2 so far…not much, I know) when school begins I have a mini-panic attack. And Carpenter is bewildered–what’s the big deal, he’ll ask, and I’ll be saying “BUT I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHEN THE SCIENCE FAIR IS GOING TO BE!!!” I want to be a PTA parent. Well, that is, I think I do. What I definitely know I want to do is to know what’s happening and when, and communicate that with my kindergartener.

She got her first homework assignment today, and I was all “IT’S BEST TO DO HOMEWORK AS SOON AS YOU GET ITto her in the car on the ride home. She ignored me, which was for the best. Not until I have written down every little detail of the school and school district calendars on my calendar will I feel like I can breathe easy. You see what your childhood will do to you? Now my kids–they’ll probably be writing a blog in 30 years, saying “MY mom was SO over the top! What a nut! I just don’t worry about school stuff that my kids bring home.” And it will drive me crazy, probably, but that is the way of life.

Okay, I gotta go start our science fair project–spring’s coming after all. I mean, right after fall and winter.

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Erin August 29, 2011 at 4:37 pm

Now I know that I am not alone with Freaking Out! I figure if I only forget paperwork/homework that is due once in a while I’ll be ok! I find that I am already that parent that annoyed me when I was teaching! Perhaps i too will joing the PTO and try to act like I have my s@#* together! :)


hollyweasel August 29, 2011 at 5:00 pm

HAHAHAHA. I love the comment when she got in the car. Don’t forget, this is kindergarten, not Marian. Although I am sure one day, way way much closer than I would like it to be, Elise will get in the car and tell me about homework, and I will push her to finish it and not blow it off – like her mama did. Bad mama.


Sara E August 29, 2011 at 9:34 pm

Um, I love you, but do homework right away? Weren’t you just as likely to procrastinate in the Pine Grove? . . . . (maybe I am remembering wrong. Either way, I won’t tell your kids :-) ).


aj August 29, 2011 at 11:18 pm

I believe you didn’t read the rest of the post where I was mostly disheveled in school and learning from my mistakes! It’s okay. Read it again. :)


aj August 29, 2011 at 11:19 pm

I know it’s hard to appreciate the subtle subtlety in my writing. It’s that deep.


Lindsay August 30, 2011 at 8:09 am

You crack me up AJ! Wait until you have two kids going to elementary school at the same time. It is so stressful! And, I think we all put much more time into our Children’s schooling than our parents did. I don’t remember my mom ever checking to see if I did my homework or signed up for the science fair! Lol!


Sara August 30, 2011 at 12:22 pm

Ah, I stand corrected. I see your intent now :-)

Helena is amazingly smart. She will be the star of the class, I am sure. I cannot wait to hear the details.


Cassie August 30, 2011 at 11:33 pm

lol. I’m so following you on this kindergarten journey. You know, mine is starting kindergarten, too. We should support each other in this. ;)

Hope all is well on the home front–besides kindergarten panic attacks. :)



Jessica September 1, 2011 at 1:29 am

Oh dear, I totally spent a happy half-hour putting both of my boys’ school schedules into my calendar, but I was thanking my lucky stars that I don’t have to deal with homework yet. Of course having to send in snacks for the class every month may do me in, what with all the allergies kids have these days! Happy first week of school!


Chuck September 1, 2011 at 10:13 pm

Nope- in 30 yrs they’ll be telling each other about what a great mom they had.


Rebecca September 2, 2011 at 9:28 pm

Good thing you are writing it on the calendar now–you won’t have time later. I always think it is hilarious that my kids homework is more of a punishment to me than I remember homework being when I was in school. Seriously–I’m more traumatized trying to get my kids to do their homework than even the homework for my AP Chem class in high school–and they are only in 1st and 3rd grades!!


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